Hello all! Sorry it's been forever since my last update. I've been trying to figure out a new post, but it's been days and I still haven't come up with much. But the gist of it is... we didn't get the best news at our last ultrasound. Basically, my follicles weren't responding to the meds the way they were supposed to and the doc canceled our cycle. We made the decision to take a couple of months off just to regroup and reassess everything. We are NOT giving up on making a baby, but we need to take a break from TTC and get back to us before we get a new plan in place.
On a side note, I want to thank everyone for all the love and support. Your emails and calls and texts (and care packages!) mean the world to us. I am continually inspired and encouraged by all of you. Thanks for being there... xo
Monday, May 23, 2011
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Poke, prick, stab, repeat...
I couldn't help but wonder if I'd look like one of those lawn sprinklers if you hooked me up to a garden hose yesterday! I dealt with needles all day yesterday! It started at my Orthodontist appointment when I had to get a couple of shots in my gums. I went from there to my acupuncture appointment.. 'nuff said. And then we had our injections last night. When I crawled into bed to do my good visualization techniques (where I imagine my follicles growing and my girly parts doing their jobs), all I could think about was starting a new business as a walking sprinkler system!!!
Friday, April 29, 2011
Back in the saddle!
After being forced to take another month off from TTC, we finally got the green light to go forward again! You've never seen a girl get so excited to start her period--I practically danced out of the bathroom! Doc put me back on the estrogen again to hopefully lengthen my cycle. (I'm pretty sure it will work because my last cycle lasted 32 days!) We did our first round of Menopur injections tonight (Doc doubled the dose) and we're excited to be moving forward.
Another tidbit of news... I started acupuncture! I'd been hearing so much about acupuncture and traditional Chinese medicine for fertility (our local news even did a segment recently), but it wasn't until Kasey got a referral from a co-worker that we made the appointment. We went to our first consultation last week and fell in love with the doctor! He's handsome and smart and unbelievably positive! He was genuinly interested in our journey and didn't bat an eye at my age. In fact, he was very encouraging and told us he thought he could help. He has been in the business for years and specializes in helping women conceive. I guess he must know something about the process--they're expecting their 2nd child any day now!
Anyway, I went back for a 2-hour workup appointment on Monday and did a ton of tests: stress & blood pressure test, pee test (toxins), tongue analysis (you'd be surprised what they can tell by looking at your tongue!), and pressure points test. The results showed that I have a lot of stress (duh) and that I have some unbalanced issues in my organs. When the doc went over the results with me he told me I'd be a great cadidate. He said acupuncture can help balance me and should help get my fertile juices flowing! I had my first session and loved it. I imagined it would be painful and unnerving to have needles poked in various parts of my body, but it was actually pretty cool. The best part was after he placed the needles in. He turned the lights off and left me to chillax for a half hour. I lay there and had a nice, long chat with all the fertilty parts of my bod. It went something like this...
OK, look. I realize I've been telling you for years NOT, under any circumstances, to get pregnant. And I understand that I've pretty much ignored you for the last decade. And now, all of a sudden, I'm begging you to start working again and getting ready to make a baby. I know it's crazy and I apologize for all the confusion. But things change. I've changed. Now I'm ready to be a mom. You're absolutely right, this wasn't our plan. I'm sorry. But we're going to make a baby. Now I need everybody to work together to make this happen. Let's do this.
As strange as it sounds, I really think my body was listening to me.
Another tidbit of news... I started acupuncture! I'd been hearing so much about acupuncture and traditional Chinese medicine for fertility (our local news even did a segment recently), but it wasn't until Kasey got a referral from a co-worker that we made the appointment. We went to our first consultation last week and fell in love with the doctor! He's handsome and smart and unbelievably positive! He was genuinly interested in our journey and didn't bat an eye at my age. In fact, he was very encouraging and told us he thought he could help. He has been in the business for years and specializes in helping women conceive. I guess he must know something about the process--they're expecting their 2nd child any day now!
Anyway, I went back for a 2-hour workup appointment on Monday and did a ton of tests: stress & blood pressure test, pee test (toxins), tongue analysis (you'd be surprised what they can tell by looking at your tongue!), and pressure points test. The results showed that I have a lot of stress (duh) and that I have some unbalanced issues in my organs. When the doc went over the results with me he told me I'd be a great cadidate. He said acupuncture can help balance me and should help get my fertile juices flowing! I had my first session and loved it. I imagined it would be painful and unnerving to have needles poked in various parts of my body, but it was actually pretty cool. The best part was after he placed the needles in. He turned the lights off and left me to chillax for a half hour. I lay there and had a nice, long chat with all the fertilty parts of my bod. It went something like this...
OK, look. I realize I've been telling you for years NOT, under any circumstances, to get pregnant. And I understand that I've pretty much ignored you for the last decade. And now, all of a sudden, I'm begging you to start working again and getting ready to make a baby. I know it's crazy and I apologize for all the confusion. But things change. I've changed. Now I'm ready to be a mom. You're absolutely right, this wasn't our plan. I'm sorry. But we're going to make a baby. Now I need everybody to work together to make this happen. Let's do this.
As strange as it sounds, I really think my body was listening to me.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Sneaky, sneaky
I have a little secret...
We picked a new donor!!!
You have no idea what a grueling process this is! We had talked about maybe looking into getting a new dude for our next go, but weren't too sure if we were up for it. It's soooo hard! You'd think it'd be no big deal. You browse the catalogs, throw in eye and hair color and viola: you get a donor! Well, it's just not that simple. But, being forced to take another month off of TTC gave us lots of time to think. So, without telling a soul, we started the process of "Finding Mr. Right" once again.
We originally looked only at brown haired guys (like KK) but decided to give the blondies a whirl. We ended up finding a great donor a few months back and put him on our list of "Donors we will consider if we don't get knocked up this month." And lucky for us, we found 2 amazing girls on the east coast who are using him too! Long story short, by the time we were ready to buy the vials, he was already retired and we were out of luck. (I'm not sure if losing out on him or our new girlfriend-mommies of his half sibs made us sadder!) Back to the drawing board...
For this new endeavor, we decided we would be open to pretty much anything. We ended up with 7 possibilities and narrowed that list to 4. And then the fun begins! Kase takes her laptop and I take mine and we sit across the room from each other. We go through each donor and scrutinize everything and then put them in order. Then comes the BIG REVEAL! When we showed our results, we had both picked the same donor as our #1! No brainer! Yesterday we ordered up the goods and now we only have to wait until May when we get our next try! Can't wait!
P.S. If you're wondering about our new guy, here's his stats: brown hair, blue eyes, 6', surfer/snowboarder, who names his mom as his "biggest hero in life" :) Awww......
We picked a new donor!!!
You have no idea what a grueling process this is! We had talked about maybe looking into getting a new dude for our next go, but weren't too sure if we were up for it. It's soooo hard! You'd think it'd be no big deal. You browse the catalogs, throw in eye and hair color and viola: you get a donor! Well, it's just not that simple. But, being forced to take another month off of TTC gave us lots of time to think. So, without telling a soul, we started the process of "Finding Mr. Right" once again.
We originally looked only at brown haired guys (like KK) but decided to give the blondies a whirl. We ended up finding a great donor a few months back and put him on our list of "Donors we will consider if we don't get knocked up this month." And lucky for us, we found 2 amazing girls on the east coast who are using him too! Long story short, by the time we were ready to buy the vials, he was already retired and we were out of luck. (I'm not sure if losing out on him or our new girlfriend-mommies of his half sibs made us sadder!) Back to the drawing board...
For this new endeavor, we decided we would be open to pretty much anything. We ended up with 7 possibilities and narrowed that list to 4. And then the fun begins! Kase takes her laptop and I take mine and we sit across the room from each other. We go through each donor and scrutinize everything and then put them in order. Then comes the BIG REVEAL! When we showed our results, we had both picked the same donor as our #1! No brainer! Yesterday we ordered up the goods and now we only have to wait until May when we get our next try! Can't wait!
P.S. If you're wondering about our new guy, here's his stats: brown hair, blue eyes, 6', surfer/snowboarder, who names his mom as his "biggest hero in life" :) Awww......
Monday, April 4, 2011
Back to us!
It's amazing what a weekend getaway to the desert can do for you!!! Aahhhh... We are back to us again.
After our crummy news last weekend, K and I decided to get away from it all and leave town. We wanted sun and heat, so we packed up and headed to Palm Springs. We left Friday--right when school got out--and made it there in time for dinner. We threw on tanks and flops and walked to a Mexican restaurant. I can't even describe how lovely it felt to sit outside, sip a Corona, and just people-watch--sheer heaven! As we cruised up and down the streets, we started thinking, Wow! It sure is busy this weekend! And look at all the lesbians! At some point, we began to realize: OMG! It's Dinah Shore Weekend! (I swear, we are such an embarrassment to the entire lesbian community!!) Utterly exhausted from the week, we landed back at our hotel and crashed sometime around 10pm. So much for these party girls!
We slept in on Saturday and drank coffee on the balcony. Just as we were discussing our plans for the day, an old friend of ours called to say she found out we were in PS (from Facebook, of course) and hoped to see us. As luck would have it, she was on her way to a pool party and wanted us to join her! Well, when in Rome.... We crashed the party and met some of the coolest girls. They were all so great and not one of them shunned us when they found out we were in town "by accident!" Ha! Everyone split up at some point: they went to other parties for Dinah; we went to the Ace Hotel pool to lay out and drink cocktails. It was a pretty perfect day. That evening, we walked to our favorite outdoor restaurant and ordered sushi and steak and salad. We sat outside in 80 degree weather and just relaxed. We picked up dessert to go and spent the rest of the evening talking and laughing in bed. After 10 hours of sleep, we peeled ourselves out of bed and walked to Starbucks for a quick breakfast before hitting the road.
I have to say, it was one of the best weekends I've had in quite some time. Aaahhhhh....
After our crummy news last weekend, K and I decided to get away from it all and leave town. We wanted sun and heat, so we packed up and headed to Palm Springs. We left Friday--right when school got out--and made it there in time for dinner. We threw on tanks and flops and walked to a Mexican restaurant. I can't even describe how lovely it felt to sit outside, sip a Corona, and just people-watch--sheer heaven! As we cruised up and down the streets, we started thinking, Wow! It sure is busy this weekend! And look at all the lesbians! At some point, we began to realize: OMG! It's Dinah Shore Weekend! (I swear, we are such an embarrassment to the entire lesbian community!!) Utterly exhausted from the week, we landed back at our hotel and crashed sometime around 10pm. So much for these party girls!
We slept in on Saturday and drank coffee on the balcony. Just as we were discussing our plans for the day, an old friend of ours called to say she found out we were in PS (from Facebook, of course) and hoped to see us. As luck would have it, she was on her way to a pool party and wanted us to join her! Well, when in Rome.... We crashed the party and met some of the coolest girls. They were all so great and not one of them shunned us when they found out we were in town "by accident!" Ha! Everyone split up at some point: they went to other parties for Dinah; we went to the Ace Hotel pool to lay out and drink cocktails. It was a pretty perfect day. That evening, we walked to our favorite outdoor restaurant and ordered sushi and steak and salad. We sat outside in 80 degree weather and just relaxed. We picked up dessert to go and spent the rest of the evening talking and laughing in bed. After 10 hours of sleep, we peeled ourselves out of bed and walked to Starbucks for a quick breakfast before hitting the road.
I have to say, it was one of the best weekends I've had in quite some time. Aaahhhhh....
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Somebody throw me some Prozac!
I probably shouldn't joke about anti-depressants. I had such an incredibly trying day on Sunday that I could easily see how someone might just slip over that precarious edge of sanity. I didn't reach that point of course, but I felt a shade of crazy for sure. I pretty much knew I wasn't pregnant and almost expected to get my period at any moment. But for some reason, when it happened, it hit me harder than I could have imagined. I broke down in tears immediately and once I started crying, I couldn't stop! I mean, I would feel a bit better and dry it up and think, Whew, glad that's over and then BAM I'd have another meltdown. Lucky for me, I have an incredible wife who somehow makes everything alright. She let me sob for as long as I needed. Then she made me get off the couch, wash my snotty face, then she put me in the car and drove me straight to the beach. It was EXACTLY what I needed.
Things are much better today. I had to jump back into work on Monday and get ready for 5 new students: hermit crabs! (A lovely distraction, actually). When we called to make a new plan with the doc, we were given some bittersweet news. We have to take next month off, but we will get to do another round of the injectables and start them much sooner next time. He wants to give my follies plenty of time to grow so we have a better chance of hitting a target when we shoot again. Soooo, not too thrilled about taking another month off, but feeling pretty excited about getting another go. And May seems like a pretty perfect month to make a baby, if you ask me.
Things are much better today. I had to jump back into work on Monday and get ready for 5 new students: hermit crabs! (A lovely distraction, actually). When we called to make a new plan with the doc, we were given some bittersweet news. We have to take next month off, but we will get to do another round of the injectables and start them much sooner next time. He wants to give my follies plenty of time to grow so we have a better chance of hitting a target when we shoot again. Soooo, not too thrilled about taking another month off, but feeling pretty excited about getting another go. And May seems like a pretty perfect month to make a baby, if you ask me.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Blah
Started my period yesterday when I was already extremely homesick...
Not a good combination. :(
Not a good combination. :(