Bummer

Well, things have not worked out the way they were supposed to, unfortunately.  
I left another appointment in tears.  (Big, dramatic sigh...)

The blood test this morning showed that my estrogen dropped dramatically (300 points) which means that I either already ovulated or would be imminently.  When the Nurse Practitioner walked in, the first words out of her mouth were, "I'm sorry."  She did the sonogram and found that nothing had changed since yesterday.  No new follicles.  No new growth.  She went ahead and gave me the trigger shot to force ovulation and told me to schedule the insemination for tomorrow morning.  She was very clear that it was "unlikely" that I would get pregnant, but said she knew how hard we worked this cycle to just do nothing.

I worry that maybe I missed my window...  
But, I must say, I have NO REGRETS.  I will NOT look back and wish I would've started this journey sooner.  I will NOT pout that I missed my opportunity because I was too busy living my life.  I will NOT EVER wish I would have accidentally gotten pregnant when I was an ignorant and reckless 20-something with fertile eggs galore!  No.  I will not.

But I will hold on to hope because, so far, I haven't heard the words You can not get pregnant.  And even though I've been beat down and scraped up, I will push on.  My mom said to me today, "If you can imagine it, it will happen.  I see this happening for you with all my heart.  I am not giving up!"  So I cannot give up.  Not yet.  We will talk to Doc tomorrow about the future plans.  And for now, I will sit here and stare at Little Squirt-- sitting nice and snug in his cryo tank--and imagine that those spermies will do their job and it will happen.