My sister calls bad moods The Dumpy Grumps. I've had a case of the dumpy grumps for two days now and I can't seem to shake them. Truthfully, there's no real reason why I've been so down. I guess it must be a combination of the meds, my anxiety level and all the "what ifs" that's causing it. No matter how hard I try to stay positive and think happy thoughts, I find myself swimming in this pool of negativity...
You know it's bad when chocolate can't fix it!
Tonight is our 3rd and final night of the injections. I must say, it wasn't as horrible as I expected. In fact, I was quite proud of my bravery!
We picked up the Menopur Friday night--you should've seen the huge bag we carried out of the Pharmacy! (I'm sure we looked like a couple of hypochondriacs stocking up on our drugs!) We were both nervous wrecks when we finally got up the nerve to do it. It really wasn't the actual shot that stressed us out, it was all the preparation involved! We had to sterilize everything, mix the vials, screw on and off the caps and needles and then shoot it in my stomach. As barbaric as it sounds, the needles are actually pretty teeny and don't hurt. Much.
Since last night I've been feeling these little twinges of pain on my left side and I just KNOW it is that effing cyst probably growing out of control. As much as I hate to admit it, I'm so freaked out that I'll go in for my appointment tomorrow and the doc will have to cancel everything! Then I'll have to get surgery and then there will be two more months of big, fat nothing. I honestly don't know what I'll do if that happens. I know I'm not supposed to have these sorts of thoughts and that I need to be positive. But, I just can't help it.
Please send out happy, fertile thoughts for me tomorrow. I need all the good vibes I can get!
2 comments:
Case, keep doing your best. This whole thing is a process that I am sure, no matter what the result is, you will have become a stronger person. You are already doing your best, so let everyone and all the cosmic powers do the rest.
I first of all want to appologize for not living closer to you as I feel your case of the dumpy grumps just may be you needing me. :). But that of course is my ego talking. Secondly, see? You were wrong, and all is perfectly well in the baby making factory in your healthy, skinny (bitch!) tummy! ;) I love you tons!
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